My week of chaios, Gods love for me

So Friday night we had this rock band party and it was so amazing! I had played before at Chelsey's but Dave and I got to play it finally by ourselves and man was it awesome. I had so much fun on electric guitar. I sang all night. Sad I knew all the songs from back in the day. I even rocked out on guitar. It was just what the doctor ordered after having a week of unfortunate events. Started out with one week left for graduation. Then the car doesn’t start. Turns out its the battery so we buy one. Then I have non stop assignments with three days left to get it done. Group projects. Those don’t always go very well but turned out I got it through it, then I am at presentation day when I decide to try out the CD prior to presenting about an hours time left before it’s my turn and the CD doesn’t work. Cratered!!!!! I am cratering by the moment. SOOOO I leave the classroom, leave the campus, drive home going faster than I should have been, make it home in 10 minutes, a normally 20 minute drive, then I ransack my room for the USB drives I have, but wouldn’t you know it they are missing.........Arrghhh!!!!! At this point I’m crying mad. So JD starts praying, Michelle was busy, so I take my instinct phone memory card, attach it to the computer, remove all the data I have on it, then I transfer all the movie files about 21, a power point, and font files to my cell phone. I rush back to school, and 20 minutes later I am up. I insert my cell phone card and it worked. I was so relieved that I made it through that morning. I had all my friends and youth praying that morning as it was Grant Melson who stayed up the night before helping me get things done, editing movies. I just don’t know what i would have done without the youth there with me moment by moment. And when I say moment by moment. They brought me food to this corner I had been attached to for a week finishing up assignments, writing papers and somehow the girls sensed when tears were about to erupt. I was like a crazed emotional being with an abundance of stress limited time and deadlines that were approaching too quickly. One evening Chelsey came in and asked if I wanted some dinner. Sweet. Grant said mamarie, its almost over. Jon Hadden was amazing at sending me text jokes. Becca and Chelsey prayed and when I cratered, they cratered with me. Okay so then I present, I rush home, room is a mess but I am on 3 hours of sleep, its Tuesday now and I begin finalizing the next presentation for Wed. morning, that goes well, drive home with the idea that I have completed my research paper, two presentations, done the study guides all tucked away in my cornered computer cubby. BUT NO!!!!! That would be too easy. I walk into my room thinking I could probably take 15 minutes to close my eyes but NO, the computer crashed with all my notes from the semester, all my finals study guides, not to mention all my other important data. Okay. What to do but cry and more praying. This is the week that God was my bestest friend because he held me up like you wouldn’t believe. One day till finals and and three days till graduation. Turns out costing us $450.00, so there went the shopping trip I had promised the girls to San Antonio with a graduation dinner at PF Changs. Sorry Becca, Chelsey, lauren, Krissy and all the little sisters. : ( Then we had a $1500.00 tuition bill due that Friday which was already a struggle. But wait, there’s more!!!!!!!! Apparently I haven’t had enough. My father is suddenly leaving his wife and wants to move in with me. Are you kidding me? I had to say no. I haven’t seen my father in months, see he isn’t allowed to see us because his wife says he is married to her and he had to choose long long time ago so he chose her and her son. Then I hear from him and he needs me to take him in. I am suddenly pressured by the prodigal son and the bible telling me that i should take him in no matter how badly he hurt me and my kids. BUT I just couldn’t do it. SOOOO I haven’t heard from him in days and again as always it will be months. If that’s not enough, I have high blood pressure and on two of those days I had to take my nitroglycerin which i hate taking because it makes me nauseas, and sick and I didn’t have time to be sick, but it was heart attack vs. sick and --——sick won so I am sick to my stomach living on coffee and popcorn. The good news is coming. On Thursday several youth girls slept at the house went with me to class and were right there with me as I walked into my first exam, then the second exam and it was over!!!!!! I had completed my Bachelors degree in psychology. Yay!!!!! So we head home make tacos, eat cake, and enjoy a movie. I love these kids. They are little angels! So then Grant says lets have a Rock band party. I say that sounds great probably what i needed. oh and Lauren has been with us now 2 days so we are having a great great time!!!!! So Friday, Richard, Grant, Jon Hadden, Chelsey, Lauren, David, JD & Michelle, Krissy...... plus myself all played like we were little rock stars. Krissy more than us. ARGGHHHH!!!!! The unit goes. Our air unit cratered and now we have no air conditioning. Jon’s mom suggested someone, i called him next morning and we got it fixed. We have air, the unit is overdue but I’ll deal with that later. The car is fixed. I graduated cum laude. Mr. Melson brought me the paper with my name in it. He is super sweet. Oh forgot the family Friday movie which was not family oriented at all. Krissy chose it. I am too embarrassed to say what Krissy chose. Anyhow, all in all, we lost some money, struggled financially, struggled emotionally, had some fun, shed some tears, shared some laughter, and it is now Tuesday. I say that we have conquered the storm with Christ as my navigator. I could not have made it through all this without Christ and he sent me several teenagers to make sure that on days that i cratered, they would do something funny to make it all better. Being a part of their lives is a calling but sharing it with them is a blessing. Its funny last night i went to Jon Haddens house for taco soup and cake for his birthday and I was asked to sit with the grown ups. I never get asked to sit with the grown ups. i am surrounded by teens so much that JD says “ what happened to my mother?” “What have you become?” I could possibly be a 39 year old going on 16. What a rough storm it was. What a learning experience it was for me. God showed me so much in just that week. He also let me know that I had to just stay strong, faithful and trust that he was steering me towards calmer waters. I’m here. We’re broke, but I have an amazing family and church kids with parents who are always ready with prayer and hugs. My husband has been my rock. Wow, has he literally lifted me up this week. He pulled me through it all and JD prayed everyday with me. My son is a romantic and he has the most amazing heart. I love this kid. Thank you God for how you have blessed me with so many hearts. Now I get to take two weeks off, spend it with the kids, and just enjoy some rest and relaxation. Any ideas for planning a party for Krissy let me know. I am throwing her a 16th birthday party. But ssshh. she doesn’t know. Grants birthday is also next and I’m excited about that. Sometimes we go through really tough times when it feels like you are under attack but I know for a fact that when you believe in God that there is a rainbow. you just have to be patient and in the meantime lean on those who love you for support. I have great friends!!!!