Drama infestation

I just can't do it. This is just one of those places and moments in life that I get completely annoyed about. I don't understand it. It's officially my pet peeve. I am just at complete odds with my life right now. I am at odds with selfless people who continue to lash out at us and act as if it is all about them and only them. Forgive me for being angry Lord but at this moment I am in just an angry place and I am too annoyed. How could this have become so messy when it was all done in your name? Why when we did the right thing, it was the wrong thing even to those who have Christian eyes. I just don't get it. Pray for my heart because it is simply at odds with all those around me.

I know we must go through this to honor you but I don't like it. I will accept it and continue to pray and hope that others will eventually just leave us alone and let us continue serving you, moving forward and just let us worship where we want.

I know we must also be the bigger person, but my question is what then when you do that and they lash out even more?

Amazing because she is

it's like this. God says carry this cross for it is just for a while and I am honored that he has called me to bear this cross for I know I am not alone. It is through this time that I know my Lord Jesus is with me, that he loves me, that he sees what has happened and I will trust only he to lead us through this temporary setback.

I am strong, yes hurt............... but strong. God thank you for making my daughter stronger than I. She is a precious gift and her light...............the light that you have allowed her to shine even brighter Lord has been our strength. Lord keep me calm for I too get angry in times of today, times of yesterday, times of weeks, times from months past. Lord just hear my heart and know that I trust you.


I am totally praising you in this storm Lord. I do not understand it............ but I give it all to you---- for I know there is a plan...........Thank you God for Krissy! She is a lightening bolt on fire for you. I am proud to call her my baby. What a blessing she is. Amazing because she is.

becoming me

I’m told I must find my theoretical rationale yet I am stuck in the middle of living a rationale. Hmm? Watching things around me crater, friends treat each other as enemies, kids manipulate their lives in such ways that even I don’t know what rationale that would fall under. Possibly stupidity---- but that has not exactly been theoretically defined. Narcissism, pathological, self centered is what exists but I must focus on person centered. Give me a break! I am supposed to see the good and healthy when they can’t even see it themselves. Interesting when those who have the opportunity to have life chose to destroy it and live it NOT according to what God has suggested. The world I live in is not only filled with devious and conniving narcissism but it is filled with people who are that far off that they really don’t see how broken they are. Finding my own personal rationale is not as easy as they make it seem. I am stuck between living it and finding it. --Crazy how that works.

I guess that’s why it is suggested to focus on those who come to you. Problem is I want to focus on even those who don’t want the help. I suppose this would be Gods rationale. Why isn’t his rationale in the text book of educating counselors?

Well here’s to finding me along the way as I begin choosing my theoretical pathway to helping others……………………………………

Are you a Christian?

So it occurred to me that saying you are ‘Christian’ is something that I get easily annoyed with especially when you say you are Christian and you act entirely opposite of what it truly means to be Christian. If you are going to say you are Christian than be Christian but don’t dishonor the rest of us who are proud to be a part of Gods greater world, by saying that you are following his ways when you are freely acting out in some narcissistic manner according to your own interpretation of what it means to be Christian.

In case anyone was wondering, when you say you are Christian, you actually are saying that you love God, that you will follow his ways, that you will NOT submit yourself to the worldly sins, the worldly mannerisms that make us become who God does NOT want us to become. He provides a stronghold of love for you to easily grab unto. He is by far constantly fighting for your life, fighting for your heart, and it is a battle that he is constantly willing to do on a daily basis, yet you choose to create a superficial mindset that declares to you that Christian is something you can wear on a t-shirt, but be pathologically misconstrued in the sense when you are living contradicting Gods words.

Let me define Christianity for you: One who professes belief in Jesus as Christ or follows the religion based on the life and teachings of Jesus. --One who lives according to the teachings of Jesus Christ.

When we live according to Christianity, we truly honor and respect that he is our father and he is almighty, he is all powerful, he is everything we should all strive to be.

It’s not easy to rebuke the ways of the world but if you can’t find a way or refuse to believe that your ways are not Christian than be mature and figure out what it is to be a Christian before you say you are.

God is an amazing and powerful influence and if we just submit to his ways and love as he wants us to love to be humane NOT human, to be a Christian by heart. BY HEART!!!!!

I am saddened that this is so difficult for the world to comprehend.
When you truly love Jesus, that world is so much better than the world we are exposed to.

My thoughts are that if you say you are Christian--- then live it. Don’t take that precious honor and disrespect my father by saying that you are a Christian.


Question: "What is a Christian?"

Answer: Webster’s Dictionary defines a Christian as “a person professing belief in Jesus as the Christ or in the religion based on the teaching of Jesus.” While this is a good starting point in understanding what a Christian is, like many secular definitions, it falls somewhat short of really communicating the biblical truth of what it means to be a Christian.

The word Christian is used three times in New Testament (Acts 11:26; Acts 26:28; 1 Peter 4:16). Followers of Jesus Christ were first called “Christians” in Antioch (Acts 11:26) because their behavior, activity, and speech were like Christ. It was originally used by the unsaved people of Antioch as a kind of contemptuous nickname used to make fun of the Christians. It literally means, “belonging to the party of Christ” or an “adherent or follower of Christ,” which is very similar to the way Webster’s Dictionary defines it.

this is the life!!!

What a beautiful morning it is with my three babies all here at home beginning the day with God. I cannot express to you how that feels. Krissy has brought so much of Gods love into the school day. Truly amazing that God can be a great part of your school day. She turned on her Christian music on her cell phone and that is what we are all listening to as they do morning devotionals and bible study. At 11 a.m. we begin with academics, PSAT, algebra, history, literature, etc….. God I thank you for this blessing. My heart is overjoyed with this blessing!!!!

Deal with it

so today really stinks. overload of homework. Research papers, counseling strategies, yard work, groceries, laundry, bills to be paid, a desk with papers that need shuffling..............My daughter comes to me about wanting to be home schooled which I totally support but really some people just don't know how to support a God thing. I am really fed up with friends thinking that our choice in homeschooling our children is something that needs more thought. I would absolutely do anything for my kids so to give this more thought is not an option because when it comes to my babies, they have my first and foremost heart. God has truly inspired my family and has blessed us with this feeling of always wanting to be closer to him. God is truly touching our hearts and for my daughter to ask to join my school along with her brother & sister is a gift from our heavenly father. deal with it!

Alpha & Omega Christian Scholars Academy is a school for kids who love Christ with all their heart and are academically ready to focus on braving the real world. That world is God's world and as long as we live in it, we should live by his truth. Nothing wrong with getting academically intelligent along the way. You know homeschooling is not a bad thing. It totally rocks!!!!! The food is great at AOCSA and we are the best dressed school. It's all about the PJ's. Best of all, everyone starts with Gods word, and it's only smiles, less stress, hard work, but great tutors who really care.

Our Lord Jesus Christ says that when two or three or more are gathered in my name, then there am I in their midst.

There is five of us. Dave (Superintendent), Marie (Principal), Michelle (scholar), Krissy (scholar) and JD (scholar). =God with us

Just thought I had to put this out there.

Making some needed changes

Well, what an amazing week it has been. Had some hard feelings to deal with as I was slowly releasing myself from some ministries dear to my heart. I had to make the decision to leave life group ministry. Realistically looking at a 7 day week, being a wife, a fulltime mother of three with two now homeschooled, and two nights a week on campus, plus all the Grad work and research I am doing, on top of field trips with Michelle & JD, plus keeping them socialized, and praising my Lord Jesus Christ, I logically narrowed my youth ministry to Wednesdays and Sunday mornings. After the entire week has progressed, my only days left would be Friday night and Saturdays. WOW!!! --2 days and no time for Dave & I to just date. So I needed to take Sunday afternoons to be with him, cuddle, hug, and just be his wife. That of course doesn’t mean I will not be a part of youth anymore but now that I am also becoming a counselor I will spend many days at shelters, agencies, community centers ministering to children and teens there as well. I don’t know if God is calling me to go further, onward and serve him elsewhere. In the meantime, I am back logged with reading, teaching and even cuddle time is over due. I know that God has a new place for me to serve and he will soon keep me very busy. I will do as much as possible to still help with RLF youth even if it’s just planning activities for the kids. I really like taking them places. -Something about me being all frazzled, sweaty and gross smelling after hauling 8 or 9 kids around. Yeah I know. I could use prayer. LOL. I am feeling more and more that God is calling me to move forward with my ministry. I have a great passion for serving. I do know that. I would like for God to really call me into an area of great need. I’m ready for that ministry.